Photo courtesy of Casey Wells []

Photo courtesy of Casey Wells []

Yes, my birthday is in May, the 31st to be exact. This year i will be celebrating that wonderful 10 a.m. memory of umbilical-cord-repelling up..or mother's..okay i obviously don’t remember the details, thankfully. Imagine that--no don't! stay focused. i will be celebrating in Mae Sot, Thailand. Wow, what an awkward intro to a blog.

Flow with me, birthing is messy i hear, i've seen, in health class of course. Nonetheless beautiful and WORTH the mess. Fast forward..

Three days ago i celebrated a month in Thailand but for some reason it didn't feel like a celebration. It felt BETTER. Better, like maybe what David felt when he witnessed the smooth stone launching from his slingshot.


..what Noah felt when rain played it's tune. *for the first time!  

..what Moses felt when stutters became words.

..what Lazarus felt when death released it's grip.

..what Daniel felt when lions snored. 

..what Michael felt when CHANGE came in MAE.          

..what [your name] felt when [your transition but with GOD]

“God can do nothing for me until i get to the limit of the possible.”  -Oswald Chambers


“Have you been asking God what He is going to do? He will never tell you. God does not tell you what He is going to do; He reveals to you Who He is.” -Oswald Chambers

That's the feeling i write of, an unshakeable reliance on a Warrior GOD who isn't playing patty-cake with the angels, but if HE is.. Oh the JOY! Oh El Shaddai [All-sufficient ONE, Lord, God Almighty]!

The short of my move to Thailand:

My plan: Chiang Mai, Documentary & Street Kids

HIS plan: Mae Sot, Burma, Refugee Camps, OutPour Movement, The Refuge Home, Burger Joint, Karen brothers & sisters, Bicycles & Borders (details soon), New Creative Process, TiME, Rest, Peace, Joy, Future Documentaries and Street start! 

In other words, i’m HOME! You’re probably thinking, man is transition that easy? YES, when you let GOD choose for you. With only a month in, dare i say that trial and tribulation will make it’s entrance? YES again, but WHAT could TRUMP GOD’S plan?

Nothing! HE will have HIS way whether or not we raise our hands with an “i’m here!” Many don’t and few wait long enough for the opportunity. So i WAiT. i mean, really, i left home!

i left family. i left friends. i left 4 seasons. i left a bathtub.

i left a car. i left mom’s arroz con gandules and grandma’s sorullos.

i left the English language and the people who speak it.

i left birthday parties, graduations, church services, weddings, baseball games and bbqs.

Surely all this leaving entitles me to doing something “GREAT” right NOW!

NO! it entitles me to HIM, who is GREAT. PERIOD!

The “So i GO” hashtag i used in many of my photos before i left  has in many ways turned into a welcoming, sobering #SoiWaitOnABBAWhoDoesNotFunctionInTheRealmOfTime and i LOVE it. i’m embracing it! Don’t confuse this WAiT with slothfulness or self-pity, please don’t do that...This patience is Habakkuk 2:3: “Though it tarry, wait for it.”

Chambers describes it as: not indifferent; patience conveys the idea of an immensely strong rock withstanding all onslaughts.

It is my service to GOD. i’m waiting on HIM who sits on a throne at a burger joint ready to order my pride, plans and small ambiguous dreams, my doubts and fears, my inabilities and comparisons, my past, present and future. So i SERVE HIM, TRUSTING HIM to tip me with more than i could ever imagine.

So yeah, the blog title: 33 yrs. ago i was born in May, this year the birthing is happening in MAE Sot, Thailand, and worth the "MESS," SO i ______! Stay tuned.


  • CHRIST spent 30 yrs. in Nazareth for 3 years of “popularity.”  

  • What does your speaking of HIS WORD say about your living of HIS WORD?

  • Don’t just BE STILL, KNOW, really KNOW that HE is GOD! Psalm 46:10

  • "Carpe-Die" to all those things that keep you from your Carpe Diem.

  • Patience is more than endurance. A saint’s life is in the hands of God like a bow and arrow in the hands of an archer. God is aiming at something the saint cannot see, and He stretches and strains, and every now and again the saint says--”I cannot stand any more.” God does not heed, He goes on stretching till His purpose is in sight, then He lets fly.” -Chambers


Burma Border